Wow.. long time, no posts!

Soy... yeah.. been awhile. Wait.. hold that thought. Need to refill my coffee. Where IS my coffee? Hmmm. Ok found it. A lot has changed since I have been here. I am a stay-at-home mom now (so to speak). I was having a lot of problems with the meds they put me on to control some health stuff going on. They were making me so tired, that I was not functioning very well. I started missing some days, and then when I WAS there, I was not very productive. They didn't have a part time position, so I ended up quitting.
I like staying home, but it's tough. Lu is our major income. I am still doing my side business, but it's not really getting us very far. I guess I have kind of given up on it, and so I just occasionally have appointments. My back problems are pretty much standard these days, but I tend to push the envelope. I am supposed to take it easy, but when I am having a good day, I like to get things accomplished. I end up paying afterwards, and for a long time, but at least something came from it. lol The heart issues are a little different. I get so tired, so easy. So when I am out being overly productive, I pay for both the next few days. I end up just sleeping like all freaking day.
The main thing.. is the guilt I feel for being so tired, or hurting all the time. It's really not fair for the girls. It affects my life daily. I think I am going to find a part time job, when school starts up again. I need to do something. I have an echo coming up, and if it's fine, then I can try to get back into some routine.

We have been so busy. Jess' swim meets are kicking our butts. Lately it seems that she has them every week! She has another one this week in AF. Then next week, I think she has a small meet, and then State is at the end of the month. They last all day, into the evening, and then the next few days. Kyra is in lessons now. I spend a LOT of time at the pool. I should be really tan! I'm not, but I should be! lol

We have a new puppy. Molly.Well, she is not new anymore. We got her almost two months ago. We rescued her from C.A.R.E . She was very neglected, and Jess fell in love with her almost immediately. The rest of us fell shortly after. She's a cutie. Some sort of Terrier/Collie mix, we think. She is clumsy as normal puppies are, but recently her clumsiness took a turn.
A few weeks ago, she was running in the back yard, and the dog next door scared her and she took off. Well, she tripped over her own feet, and went down. We think her front paw was extended when she tumbled and it snapped her elbow! Lu was watching her from the patio. Molly went down. She tried to get up, but took a few steps and went down and started howling for Lu to come and get her. Lu picked her up and brought her into me. She was going into shock and would not let Lu put her down. She would not put any weight on it. It would mean we would need to take her into the vet. We called and got her into VCA. Molly wasn't moving. Anytime we tried to move her, she whined. She was definitely in shock now. The vet said she had a temp, and her gums were very pale. The vet examined her and and said that she thought the elbow was broken, so they would need to do xrays. We had to leave her there so that the pain meds they gave her could kick in and they could do the xrays. We left her and waited for them to call. I was a MESS! Molly and I had bonded really quickly! She was my baby! We drove around for awhile and then ended up right back at the vet. We just sat there and waited. They finally brought her out to us. It was definitely broken! In fact, the break was so bad, it would need surgery. Pins and bolts to repair it.The cost of that was going to be about $4000. Sheeah. Right! We were screwed.
We checked into some other places, and options. We finally took her to Healing Hearts Hospital, because they worked with rescue groups, and was willing to work with us. Long story shorter... she went into surgery like a week later. They had doped her up on pain pills and tranqs to keep her immobile until the surgery.. but Molly is a super dog and wasn't having any of the lying down crap! She was EVERYWHERE! They then gave her MORE pills to try to keep her down. Nope.

Anyway.. the ortho doc said that it would be better to amputate. If they tried to repair it, it may or may not work, and she would always have pain, and may need more surgeries later. Also, arthritis would set in early. She would never have full function of the limb again.
We decided to amputate because I didn't want to see her in pain anymore. We thought and thought about this, and it was the right thing to do.
So when it was time for the surgery. I cried like a baby, dropping her off. We got a call saying that the doc decided, once he saw Molly, that he was just going to try to fix the leg. He had pins in it, everything, but nothing was holding~ So they ended up having to take it off.

She recovered great, and is almost healed! She never let this stop her, and reaffirmed our decision. I swear she runs just as fast as she did before the surgery.

So.. see? we have been extra busy. All this Molly stuff came right after my father died. That's another story, and will have to wait for another time. That in itself drains me to even think about.
Anyway.... I have to go let Molly out. She wants to run in the yard, and of course, in the irrigation ditch~ Errghhh!
I also have to pee. Then off to the orthodontist with Kyra. Fun stuff!

Hasta la Pasta